Update: The day got much better after this venting and a nap, then some music and time with Emily and a wonderful chat with my Littleone! The day actually ended pretty well...now since I kinda lost a day, we'll see how well I do at getting everything done tomorrow. Read if you choose.
So because I'm still fuming, and I want the remainder of my day to be somewhat better, I'm going to vent on this...please stop reading if you don't want to listen to me bitch!
If it could have gone wrong this morning, it kinda did! I started out the morning good, got to sleep in, take a shower, get ready and headed to work. At work is where everything turned f'n upside down! I plugged my laptop in to the Internet connection only to find that I cannot connect to the outside world. This has happened once before, I can connect to the network, I get an IP address, I can even ping things, but I cannot get Internet or any form of contact outside my computer really! This I could probably work around, IF! my computer for work actually did what I wanted it to! My computer at work is a f'n Linux box that is supposed to be as good as a mac and never have any problems...well let me tell you, I've had less problems with my 3 PC systems in 7 years than I've had in a year and a half with the stupid Linux system! Not winning me over! I will stick to my Window's machine! One of the main things is that the Internet doesn't work on it..Yes, everyone things FireFox is the best thing since sliced bread, yea I'd rather throw a knife at the computer screen than use FireFox! FireFox on my machine (no it doesn't happen to others, but no one can fix it!) makes the computer run really hard and then it will quit! I cannot send, check e-mails or check anything else out, research related or not! Yes, I know you are saying "Jerilyn, this all seems a bit petty", poor her she can't check her e-mail.....but it's the fact that it will come up, I will check e-mail and I will have time invested into writing an e-mail and I loose the whole thing! I just couldn't deal with it! After it quitting on me 3 times in 10 minutes, I'd had it! To top it off, there was user error that didn't help the day...yes I'm mad at myself about this one. I'm running a computer model and I ran it, taking up all the available processors for the group over night in hopes that it would finish this morning and I wouldn't be inconveniencing anyone. Yea that worked to a point. It did run and finish by morning, but I had not changed something, so the run was invalid, thus requiring me to restart it and take up the groups resources for the next 15 hours...sorry to my group members and thanks! Then because I was so irritated, just about everything else was bothering me...you name it, it probably annoyed me. So basically, all of these things happening at once just got to me, and I had to leave work. I'm now at home...cooling off and getting ready to start working again, with a computer that works. So the combo of me being stupid and the computer not working was just to much for me! I'm out....hopefully to have a better afternoon!
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Saturday, March 24, 2007
Lit Review Done!
It's done! I've turned in my Lit Review. And by "turned in" I mean, emailed a PDF at 2 am to my advisor. I'm very glad to have it done, yes I know I was crazy to stay at school till 2 am on a Friday night (saturday morning), but I wanted it done! I knew if I didn't finish it tonight, it would hang over my head all weekend and I wouldn't be able to enjoy any of it. Also, I'm a person that once I've set a deadline, I hate not keeping it. Even though I don't like to be tardy with a deadline, I usually take the entire time I'm given, down to the wire. I did again, I said I'd have it by friday, and I actually didn't make it till sat, but I'm going to count it on friday, because I haven't gone to bed yet. With that I'm out....been up since 5, it's now 3...a 22 hour day is long! Night!
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
Lit Review Wednesday
It's Wednesday night, and I've still got a good section and a half to totally write by Friday. I'm on my way, but it always takes longer than I think it will to get my citations inputted correctly, and edit it. I need to not be on this, but writing...I'm on my way. It took me a long time to get going on it...only about a month to write. I had to write complete shit first before I could go back and start writing what a real lit review should be like. I'm finally there and I get on a good groove while I'm writing, but it's still not easy. As I sit here talking about it, I'm not motivated to do more research and write, so I'm thinking maybe go to bed, and get up early...much like I did a lot of last semester. I do actually have most of the papers gathered, not necessarily read, but hard copies in my hand for the section I have left to write. i'll get it done, I'm not to worried about that, it will just not be a happy next 36 or so hours...I do it to myself folks! FUN! and with that...no more rambling..off I go.
Love
Love
Sunday, March 18, 2007
Spring Break and the week after
Since I've last posted, I've traveled for spring break, and had a full week of regular (kinda) work. For spring break my parents came out to the East, much like last year, but this year we only went into Virginia and saw some of the history there.
We started out on Wednesday of spring break in Richmond, VA. We went to Petersburg on the way up to Richmond and learned about the Civil war battles that were fought there. In Richmond we went to an old civil war hospital and a good museum that told the story with facts about 3 different sides of the war, the union, confederate and blacks. It was good and educational. From Richmond we traveled to Williamsburg which would be our base point until we left. In 3 days we saw the beginning and the end of the British in America. We started in Jamestown, where the first British colony was set up. It was quite interesting to hear about how people began to populate the area. The next day we went to Colonial Williamsburg, which is quite an adventure. You are in 1774, in the center of a town. It was interesting and fun. The day was pretty nice, so we didn't have to freeze, it had gotten colder the couple days before. Williamsburg was the capital of Virginia from 1699 to the early 1800's(if I remember right) before it was moved to Richmond. The last day we went to Yorktown and saw the last battle fought before the British surrendered. While in Williamsburg, we got to shop at a wonderful outlet mall and the BIGGEST Yankee Candle store in the world!!! IT was fun, I even got started on my Christmas shopping!
We headed back and I began my wonderful time back at school. Since my parents were still in town, I tried to go in early to work(didn't always work) and I went home at 5ish...a very short day for me. I got flowers which have been planted and brightened up my deck, and we even did some shopping until midnight on Tuesday night(wed morn). I love it when my parents are here! They left to go back to Kearney on Thursday morning, and arrived home late Friday night.
On Wednesday and Thursday we had a student visitor, a girl from Valpo (where Adam and Dr. Parker went). She seemed nice and fit right into the group. Thursday was a full day of meetings, lunch, showing her around the area and a dinner at. Dr. Parker's house, a full day, but a good one!
The weekend lead me into a wonderful sleeping pattern, I wish I could keep. I slept 12 hours Friday night and 10 last night. I loved it. I am now taking a break from writing part of my Lit Review for my Thesis. I have gotten more than I thought I would done, I mean I have crazy thoughts that I can just sit down and type things out, but it takes me much longer than that. I do have a good 350 words done...yes I know, not much, but it is good for me, trust me.
With this break, I hope that I can go back and write another couple hundred words and continue on with the lit review so that I have something semi-substantial to show this week for my work.
The week shall be a good one I hope, I thought it would be pretty empty, but almost each day this week has something out of the ordinary, which should hopefully help make the week go by faster. With that....Love
We started out on Wednesday of spring break in Richmond, VA. We went to Petersburg on the way up to Richmond and learned about the Civil war battles that were fought there. In Richmond we went to an old civil war hospital and a good museum that told the story with facts about 3 different sides of the war, the union, confederate and blacks. It was good and educational. From Richmond we traveled to Williamsburg which would be our base point until we left. In 3 days we saw the beginning and the end of the British in America. We started in Jamestown, where the first British colony was set up. It was quite interesting to hear about how people began to populate the area. The next day we went to Colonial Williamsburg, which is quite an adventure. You are in 1774, in the center of a town. It was interesting and fun. The day was pretty nice, so we didn't have to freeze, it had gotten colder the couple days before. Williamsburg was the capital of Virginia from 1699 to the early 1800's(if I remember right) before it was moved to Richmond. The last day we went to Yorktown and saw the last battle fought before the British surrendered. While in Williamsburg, we got to shop at a wonderful outlet mall and the BIGGEST Yankee Candle store in the world!!! IT was fun, I even got started on my Christmas shopping!
We headed back and I began my wonderful time back at school. Since my parents were still in town, I tried to go in early to work(didn't always work) and I went home at 5ish...a very short day for me. I got flowers which have been planted and brightened up my deck, and we even did some shopping until midnight on Tuesday night(wed morn). I love it when my parents are here! They left to go back to Kearney on Thursday morning, and arrived home late Friday night.
On Wednesday and Thursday we had a student visitor, a girl from Valpo (where Adam and Dr. Parker went). She seemed nice and fit right into the group. Thursday was a full day of meetings, lunch, showing her around the area and a dinner at. Dr. Parker's house, a full day, but a good one!
The weekend lead me into a wonderful sleeping pattern, I wish I could keep. I slept 12 hours Friday night and 10 last night. I loved it. I am now taking a break from writing part of my Lit Review for my Thesis. I have gotten more than I thought I would done, I mean I have crazy thoughts that I can just sit down and type things out, but it takes me much longer than that. I do have a good 350 words done...yes I know, not much, but it is good for me, trust me.
With this break, I hope that I can go back and write another couple hundred words and continue on with the lit review so that I have something semi-substantial to show this week for my work.
The week shall be a good one I hope, I thought it would be pretty empty, but almost each day this week has something out of the ordinary, which should hopefully help make the week go by faster. With that....Love
Wednesday, March 7, 2007
What to do? This or That???
Scenario 1
I finish up school, pack up my apartment in Raleigh and move all of my belongings to a storage unit in Raleigh. Leave for my trip to Europe, paying for the storage unit and other things like my car, but not an apartment or bills associated with that. Then when I arrive back in America I will pack up the most needed things and head to Kearney to stay with my parents until I find a real job and move there.
Scenario 2
I finish up school and go on my trip, keeping my apartment and everything in Raleigh, and when I get back from Europe, I continuing living in Raleigh, trying to find an odd and ends job that probably won't give me enough money too pay for rent and bills, until I find a real job and move there.
Scenario 3
I finish up school, pack up my belongings and transport it all to Kearney, paying the large moving bill, then return to Raleigh and head out to Europe, upon returning, I will go back to Kearney, and try to find something to do until I find a real job and move there.
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OK so all of these scenarios have similar and overlapping parts, but they all have very important different key qualities. What should I do? Is it smarter to move my stuff and pay for a storage unit and move home. Or, Stay in Raleigh and get into debt but be where I probably have a better chance of a better part time job, Or, Pay to move all my stuff home and pay to move it all again from Kearney.
I'm leaning toward Scenario 1, since money isn't exactly over whelming right now. I don't know how long it would last, it could be for 1 month, or 6 months...I pray that it wouldn't take 6 months but who knows. After undergrad, it was easier to stay in Norman that it would be to stay in Raleigh. I think it would be the cheapest to pay for a storage unit each month and live at home, and have very few bills.
Which Scenario is the smartest and best? The joy of deciding to not get a PhD is great, but the unknown for jobs is scary..and the unsureness of money is a big issue. I will get the job I want, I just don't know how long it will take. Any comments or better suggestions for my predicament?
The scary is infiltrating my life.
Love
I finish up school, pack up my apartment in Raleigh and move all of my belongings to a storage unit in Raleigh. Leave for my trip to Europe, paying for the storage unit and other things like my car, but not an apartment or bills associated with that. Then when I arrive back in America I will pack up the most needed things and head to Kearney to stay with my parents until I find a real job and move there.
Scenario 2
I finish up school and go on my trip, keeping my apartment and everything in Raleigh, and when I get back from Europe, I continuing living in Raleigh, trying to find an odd and ends job that probably won't give me enough money too pay for rent and bills, until I find a real job and move there.
Scenario 3
I finish up school, pack up my belongings and transport it all to Kearney, paying the large moving bill, then return to Raleigh and head out to Europe, upon returning, I will go back to Kearney, and try to find something to do until I find a real job and move there.
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OK so all of these scenarios have similar and overlapping parts, but they all have very important different key qualities. What should I do? Is it smarter to move my stuff and pay for a storage unit and move home. Or, Stay in Raleigh and get into debt but be where I probably have a better chance of a better part time job, Or, Pay to move all my stuff home and pay to move it all again from Kearney.
I'm leaning toward Scenario 1, since money isn't exactly over whelming right now. I don't know how long it would last, it could be for 1 month, or 6 months...I pray that it wouldn't take 6 months but who knows. After undergrad, it was easier to stay in Norman that it would be to stay in Raleigh. I think it would be the cheapest to pay for a storage unit each month and live at home, and have very few bills.
Which Scenario is the smartest and best? The joy of deciding to not get a PhD is great, but the unknown for jobs is scary..and the unsureness of money is a big issue. I will get the job I want, I just don't know how long it will take. Any comments or better suggestions for my predicament?
The scary is infiltrating my life.
Love
Tuesday, March 6, 2007
PoP!
This makes me laugh!!! It was a great movie, I recommend it!!! Check out the video though!
Laugh! **Place image of someone with their arm up singing PoP***hehe
Chinese, Friends, Boys and Shoes
This past weekend was exciting. Friday night Emily and I went to the mall to have some dinner and shop a little. We went to White House Black Market, one of my favorite stores, eventhough I've never bought anything before Friday night. It's just such a nice store, a bit expensive, but has beautiful clothes. Once I become the new me, I will buy a dress for my cruise! It's my dream and it will come true! Emily was looking for something for the wedding we are going to at the end of the month. We tried some stuff on for 10 min before they closed, then went back for probably an hour on Saturday. I ended up buying some beautiful new shoes though, I just love the shoes, and didn't love any of the tops I tried on. However, I did get to play dress up with my real life sized barbie, Emily, and she bought a beautiful new black and white dress, and a skirt. Did I say I LOVED the shoes!!!!
Friday night Emily and I went to PF Chang's. I love that restaurant! We had a good time, some lucky cat and Riesling with some orange peel and honey chicken and fried noodles!! I always have a good time when I go to PF Chang's. My favorite Chinese restaurant, but that doesn't mean much, I haven't been to many.
Saturday Emily went and got her Bridesmaid dress for Jessie and Chad's wedding. I got a talking to though about how good eharmony was and that I should sign up, which I don't agree with. I'm not against meeting someone now in my life, I'd welcome it, but I'm not going to go look for it online right now, because the last thing I want at this moment in my life is to meet someone that will not move away from the area. My job pretty much dictates the fact that I won't be living here much longer and the fact that I want to get closer to home also predisposes me to want to find someone that would like to live closer to home. I also need to meet someone that will travel with me as it's a must in my life! So I'm not against eharmony and am so glad that people have used it, but the whole concept just isn't for me right now. However, I'm sure I do need to find me a man...:-D
With this I end my talk of Chinese, friends, boys and shoes! I am leaving in the morning on a trip gallivanting through Virginia! It should be fun and I will let you know what I do, as I don't know what we'll end up doing just yet. Enjoy the week.
Love
Friday night Emily and I went to PF Chang's. I love that restaurant! We had a good time, some lucky cat and Riesling with some orange peel and honey chicken and fried noodles!! I always have a good time when I go to PF Chang's. My favorite Chinese restaurant, but that doesn't mean much, I haven't been to many.
Saturday Emily went and got her Bridesmaid dress for Jessie and Chad's wedding. I got a talking to though about how good eharmony was and that I should sign up, which I don't agree with. I'm not against meeting someone now in my life, I'd welcome it, but I'm not going to go look for it online right now, because the last thing I want at this moment in my life is to meet someone that will not move away from the area. My job pretty much dictates the fact that I won't be living here much longer and the fact that I want to get closer to home also predisposes me to want to find someone that would like to live closer to home. I also need to meet someone that will travel with me as it's a must in my life! So I'm not against eharmony and am so glad that people have used it, but the whole concept just isn't for me right now. However, I'm sure I do need to find me a man...:-D
With this I end my talk of Chinese, friends, boys and shoes! I am leaving in the morning on a trip gallivanting through Virginia! It should be fun and I will let you know what I do, as I don't know what we'll end up doing just yet. Enjoy the week.
Love